Sunday, February 20, 2011

Thanks for making me a fighter...


Thank you running for keeping me healthy.  Thank you running for being there for good times and the bad times.  Thank you running for allowing me to buy new clothes.  Thank you running for helping me find my love for Eminem.  Thank you running for giving me an excuse to wear my hat backwards.  Thank you running for allowing me to take part in the Dana Point Turkey Trot in freezing cold weather.  Thank you running for proving to myself that I could do it.  Thank you running for allowing me to share this memory with my popsiedoodle, sister, and brother-in-law.  Thank you running for helping me heal. 






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My favorite couple :)

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Merry Christmas, Happy Birthday, and You Better Graduate

 Ever since I was little, my Dad has had great cameras.  He taught me how to develop film by making a dark room in our bathroom and he taught me what aperture meant.  I steal his camera, a Nikon D80, every chance I am home.  There is nothing wrong with a point and shoot, and thus far, my Canon has captured my life in Italy and successfully recorded Austin saying embarrassing lines from South Park.  But it was time. It was time to invest, or shall I say it was time to conjoin every holiday within the next year to get an incredible gift, my very own Nikon.
I proposed that this camera be my only Christmas present and to forgoe a raging 21st birthday party, and eventually when lenses got involved, it became a part of my graduation present. In my opinion, totally worth it. 
I chose the Nikon D90. And it is my child right now. It makes me want to learn about the art of photography and it makes me want to capture the small details in life.
 To be honest, my life is crazy right now.  Full time school, working at Con Pane (a bread bakery and cafĂ©), volunteering at my church, training for a half marathon, and interning/volunteering with Alliance for African Assistance as a family mentor.  But I am happy. The happiest and most fulfilled I have ever been.  I may not be doing crazy new things all the time, but I hope to at least update ya’ll with pictures on this blog, as I am not on Facebook for the time being and it has been the greatest thing I could have done for myself.  These are some of my favorite shots from the last couple weeks…. Enjoy!










Monday, January 10, 2011

Chaos. Confusion. Confidence.


Sometimes I wonder how close I still remain to my friends from high school, or if those friendships built over ASB, volleyball, and prom, are over. It was a trip like this, that brought me back. Back to who I once was, so much laughter it wouldn’t surprise a full set of abs by the end of the week, and helped me remember that those friendships are far from over.

            Colleen is one of my best friends, quite possibly the most selfless person I know, and thus will make an incredible nurse one day. She invited us to stay at her place for New Years, how could any of us refuse an offer to:
a. Finally go see where Colleen lives and goes to school at the University of San Francisco
b. A free place to stay in San Fran
c.  Bread bowls on the wharf
d. And of course, look at the Golden Gate bridge as we count down the minutes and seconds into 2011

I couldn’t have asked for a better three nights and four days in San Francisco.  From the moment I took my seat in the car for the 8-hour car ride to San Fran, it was nothing but continuous laughter.   Kristen, Colleen, Aleesha, and I, for some reason only speak in Ebonics when we are amongst each other and therefore anything and everything we say is hilarious, well we think it is. 

We were tourists. We went to Haight and Ashbury (free people jeans $24!), the Golden Gate Bridge, Union Square, Pier 39, Lombard Street, The Full House houses, drove by the Tenderloin, drank lots of coffee, laughed at Kristen’s adventures in her green socks, ate at Georgios, met a one-eyed dog, and rode in a party bus on New Years eve….

Aleesha has acquired a gift, aside from being an expert at making animal sounds, she can fake a phone conversation like nobody’s business. She stood outside of Colleen’s apartment where she proceeded to have conversation on the phone about meeting our friend in downtown San Francisco, as well as mentioning that we couldn’t find a cab.  That’s when the cute grad student from next door came outside and offered us a ride in the limo that he had gotten to take all of his friends.  We clearly could not turn down such an offer.  It was a party bus, not a limo, but you didn’t see any of us complaining. While dancing in the party bus, not only did it bring me back to my high school dance days, it also made me look around wondering how the heck did this happen!?  We ended the night at Pier 39 as we watched fireworks light up the city.  A downpour of rain followed the midnight countdown; it was one of those movie moments that are sort of impossible to put into words.  We strutted down four blocks in dresses and heels to find a cab home and finally made it there after failed attempts to speak Spanish to our cab driver.
 These girls are uniquely amazing, and gave me the best New Years I could have asked for.  I think sometimes I let college and becoming an “adult” get the best of me.  These girls know me.  They know me stressed, they know me happy, they know me in love, and they know me now. Whatever now is, they know me, and I know them, and we love each other for our past and for our present and encourage whatever the future brings.  Bring it on 2011, I have been waiting for you.  














Saturday, December 18, 2010

Four Inch Heels and My Little Black Dress


Im a little late... I know. But during finals week, I pretty much lived in the library and potentially had more coffee in my system than water.  On the bright side, I successfully wrote a 20 page paper on the economic recession and illegal immigration and completed a semester long public relations project with a non-profit in San Diego, both of which Im very proud of.  So this is what I've been up to....

Wearing a tight black dress and four inch heels isn’t my usual every Friday night attire, but when I got the “Evite” to go to a black and white Christmas party, I couldn’t deny the opportunity.  The dress was easy.  It was cute, it was on sale, and I justified it by remembering that when I am 40 I wont be able to wear things like this without getting ridiculed by the PTA moms.  I am 20, in college, so carpe diem, I thought… $17 dollars later and the dress was mine. 
            The heels were a last minute decision.  The black dress wasn’t a good partner with my always-bruised legs. Yes I have been checked for Anemia in my days, and no I don’t have it.  Unfortunately for me and my dress, I am just an easy bruiser.  I added black tights to the mix, which looked way to bizarre with my every-occasion-pair of simple black flats. 
            That’s when I took the plunge. I am single. I am 6 foot tall. And I don’t give a care in the world to be another 4 inches.  After rummaging through Dana’s collection of heels, I found the perfect pair of caged black heels and thought to myself, “Oh yea Beck, tonight’s the night.” After getting ready with my girlies, while listening to Destiny’s Child hits like “Bootylicious” or my personal favorite, “Im a Survivor”, we were ready to make our entrance. 
            I thought wearing heels would potentially make me insecure, but it did the exact opposite.  I was a giant and I knew that, so I decided to be confident in knowing that.  And after several conversations of boys looking up at me, I realized, they really aren’t that intimidated.
            The party was so much fun!  I danced with my best friends, and my partner and I successfully won three games of pool, in a row!  I don’t think 4 inches heels are going to be part of my everyday wardrobe, but from now on, if the heels look better with the dress, I am goin for it!  



If you havent noticed. Im not on facebook. Yep im one in a million people who chose to deactivate and hope their social life still continues on.   Im just taking a little break from it, so my blog posts will be posted on friends' walls! 

MERRY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY HOLIDAYS :)

Saturday, November 27, 2010

A love for Hockey and a colorful sunrise


I am thankful for the changes and growing that I have done throughout college and within the past five months.  I am also thankful for my friendship with Dana Czapski.  I have known her since elementary school, and although we are two completely different people, we compliment one another well and find connection in our sense of humor.   We played lacrosse together, did ASB together, she drove me to school everyday, we did Saturday school together for too many tardies, and have been able to share in the happiest and saddest moments in one another’s lives.  She is a blessing to me, and is the most level headed Alpha Phi I know.
            Dana also likes hockey games, and knows a whole clan of boys who like hockey games too.  Or should I say they like Ducks games.  Dana has wanted to check something off the list with me ever since I created the bucket list.  A hockey game was the perfect thing to do.  It was a 1 o clock game at the Honda Center, or the Pond for all you old timers. Once the guys were decked out in Ducks jerseys, we hopped in the suburban with not a seat to spare and made the journey to Anaheim. 
            I was instantly in love. I love hockey. I love the jerseys. I love the simplicity of the game. I love the arena. I love the yelling.  I love the smell of hotdogs and beer. And I love when two hockey players smash into the plexi glass windows. 
            I snapped lots of pictures throughout the game, barely making it in with my camera, because the lady busted out the ruler to measure the lense.  She meant serious business. 
            The ducks lost, but I still had fun, and hope that another hockey game is in my near future.  We ended the day with a surprise birthday party for Dana.  She had no idea, and was such a pain to get back to her house, but in the end it was totally worth it! 








             

          Though this wasn’t on my list, it is worth mentioning.  Early Friday morning, I headed up Trabuco Canyon with my two amazing friends, Austin and Paul.  We did a quick 15 minute hike and found ourselves watching the sunrise.  The story goes that there used to be a house, but it burned down, and now there is just a gutted out pool.  People graffiti all over it and it makes for really awesome photos! Check em' out!




            In preparation for thanksgiving break, I fasted for two days, only eating after sundown.  To fast was on the original bucket list, however after doing it, I realize what a spiritual and meaningful experience it was for me.  To blog about it, would not do it justice, so I guess if you are curious how it went for me, ask me about it! Id love to share my reasons for doing it, and what it was like.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Good Coffee and Creepy Cars


           Well this wasn’t on the original list, but I will have you know the list is growing day by day.  It’s been a while because… well school sucks.  A 20 page paper about illegal immigration, a semester long Public Relations assignment, and some how Christian Tradition is kicking my butt.  Hence why this post is all about studying, because that’s what I have been doing.

            My mind always seems to wander when I am doing my work.  I start thinking about all the other things I have to do, and how I hope I will have enough time to make a decent dinner and go for a run.  These thoughts NEED to stop.  Sometimes I think I wasn’t diagnosed with ADHD as a child, then other times I just have to say to myself, “Beck pull it together.”

            Some places are good for busy work, some places have better coffee than others, and some are cleaner than others. It never ends… just like my homework.
            So. I began to switch it up. Library, the Living Room Cafe, Panera, Starbucks, Peets, The PBC (Point Loma’s coffee shop, and my good ole apartment. 
            
Well here it is:

1.     Library- pretty good, easy to drift, but I get to see my friends
2.     The Living Room Cafe- dirty and tables for people who are 5’2
3.     PBC- I saw 2 friends and ended up chatting for an hour
4.     Peets- Great coffee, nice people, comfy chairs
5.     My apartment- all I want to do is talk to my roomies or go to sleep

Then I got creative and sorta weird. I decided that my car, with the seats folded down parked by the ocean, would and could be the perfect place for me to clear my thoughts. I headed to sunset cliffs with blankets and pillows and my laptop.  I sat in the back of my car, listened to music, and let myself write.  It was going pretty well, until I realized the car to my left, was to youngsters escaping mom and dad’s house… if you catch my drift.  And the car to my right, was a creepy white van, that had a mysterious red laser shining from the window.  ( picture: me in my car... HA!)

           
Thus, leading me to award the most conducive studying environment to … PEETS (my dad should be proud J ) not to mention REALLY GOOD coffee... vanilla latte or chai tea in the ceramic cups... just sayin...